mothers intuition

it's interesting mothering for the second go-around.

with k i had a few of those dramatic and traumatic moments where you are tearing your hair out and sobbing because you feel utterly helpless trying to deduce what's wrong with your screaming baby.  thankfully, i didn't have as many as i would have thought before becoming a mom. 

this round of mothering a newborn has been even more delightful.  i know a lot of that has to do with baby b's personality and demeanor.  she is a very mellow, easy-going, self-entertaining baby girl.  i am one lucky mama. 

but all of that luck aside, some of this delight has to come from my mom skills, right?  i mean, it's not my first time - surely i would have learned a few things, right?  right!!!  it's so exhilarating for someone like me (read someone who never wanted to hold babies, rarely wanted to babysit, didn't look forward very much to having her own children) to feel like i actually have some of that wonderful mother's intuition.  me?  that's right :)

i'm being slightly sarcastic if it wasn't reading...

i love when b is crying and i can tell it's her mama, i'm tired!  put me to bed! cry.  i don't know what it sounds like, i'm not that trained.  but i have the intuition to know it's time for her to lay down and get some sleep.  she is calm the minute we enter her room - i turn on her sound machine, lay her on her back, and watch as she turns to the side and sticks that thumb in her mouth.  after wrapping her up in her blankets, i sneak out of the room and she doesn't make another sound. 

i love when i'm right!  it's such a rewarding feeling.  like i really do know what i'm doing!  maybe i'm the only one who ever feels this way, but it is so encouraging to feel like i know exactly how to meet her needs.  feels good!